Loves Lost

I have been married and divorced 2 times. After my second divorce I fell in love twice more…even proposed to the second one…and I do miss the good times I had with them all…and am glad that the other times are not the main memory I have of them…there is nothing like falling in love…and I never felt it more than with the ladies that came after my 2nd divorce! Troubling times came with both the divorces the 1st one I couldn’t believe that it was happening and I acted badly in that breakup and fell off into a deeper end than I was already on…more on that later…number 2 was not a falling in love happening but kind of just happened…started out in deep water…and only got worst…and then to a few years of the a solid relationship with hope for the future…and then to the second divorce…I had become a changed man and had boundaries that I needed to live within…more on that later also…next up was the online dating scene…in my mid 50s having lost some weight and a lot more healthy…I was feeling a bit lonely…and I must say that was a very fun time in my life…mature dating…feeling attractive and being attracted to women again was a heart lifting experience…gave me a very good feeling about myself and I learned a lot about how women think and how they wanted to be treated…I didn’t get it right all the time but the women I dated laughed and talked with me as much as did with them…then boundaries set in…which I found out are much more prevalent and more unmovable in both men and women as we age! The romance and excitement of trying to please one another moved to on to what are we going to do with this relationship…I was fortunate enough to have the pleasure of really believing I had found love for sure and it being returned…not once but twice! Alas things were not meant to be…more on that later!